NEW YEAR!!! NEW START!! again :)

OK - my plan for 2010 is to stay motivated.

I have my gym pass, I have pretty good eating habits so what's the problem....motivation!!

Curves, curves, & more curves!
Curves, curves go away. . . . skinny me wants to play!!

Here goes! I know how to eat right, I just choose not to! I know I need to walk/exercises every day, but I always have something more important to do (an excuse). I will never go to the gym because I refuse to run on a treadmill next to the skinny girl or the really hot guy! I probably didn't get that job because of my weight/health, why would a health care professional want to hire someone who is NOT healthy? My "skinny" jeans actually used to be my "fat" jeans! I know I am obese, but I never say it out loud. I am saying it now & it is time to do something about it!!

The chief excitement in a woman's life is spotting women who are fatter than she is, true or false?

TRUE:
I have tried to accept my weight by looking at other people that are "fatter" than me. I would look at them and think, "well at least I don't look like that". It seems as though every year I find less and less people that I can think that about and that's because I am catching up with them all. I am now the "fat girl" that others walk behind and think, "well, at least I am not as fat as her". I can read their mind, I feel what they are thinking.

I am obese! I am not healthy, and I am doing something about it. Not next week, or at the beginning of the month. Not after the holidays or starting the new year. Not when I have more time or my life gets less busy. Not when I go to the Doctor or the hospital because it's a matter of life or death. I am doing something NOW!. . . . . . . . . . .

I am joining curves!! I am sure I will cry tomorrow morning when they tell me my weight and measure my waist and one day I hope to be crying happy tears because I reached my goal & "love" my waist!! I hope that my current "skinny" jeans will once again become my "fat" jeans. I hope to soon post a "before" picture, a "I am on my way" picture, and one day a "I DID IT" picture. It's time to take care of me!!

Thanks for those who understand the journey I am about to take and for those who are taking the journey with me!!

Joining curves to lose some curves!

Vicious Circle

Well a Yo-yo is a circle! Which is exactly was has been happening to me. Yay!! I lost 2.6 lbs... then gained 2.9 Ok not so bad, just have to start over. So I did really well and didn't bother obsessively weighing myself every morning. The following week, whoo-hoo!! lost 3lbs! How did I do that? It was so easy, almost too easy. Now I'm back to getting naked and hopping on the scale every morning only to see that 3 lbs is back and now I have to avoid the bathroom mirror as I hop off, ugh, and decide for what seems like the millionth time "I'm starting over... Today" Now I only wish I would have woken up an hour early, saw that dreaded scale and headed downstairs for a fresh start work out. But I was so tired, cuz my chubby self couldn't get comfy, so I didn't sleep well and now I have no energy to work out. Although I know that if I exercise more, I'll have more energy to make good food choices throughout the day, which will help my weight loss and in turn help me sleep better so I can wake up refreshed and start the day with and energizing workout. Yep... It's a vicious circle! Well tomorrow is another day and when I get a hold of that yo-yo I'm gonna cut the string off and tie it up in knots!