New Year...New Us...2011

“Failure is only a fact when you give up. Everyone gets knocked down, the question is: Will you get back up?”


It’s a New Year … 2011, will this be it, the year we finally change our habits and change our life? Will this be the year we become healthy. I’m not talking about how many pounds we’ve lost or what size jeans we can get into by Valentines Day or 4th of July, or our next birthday or the Sister’s Retreat. I’m talking about changing our thinking on what defines our diets.

It shouldn’t be about what size we are, we need a goal that is deeper. For me it will be to lower my blood sugar. My goal is to be off 1 of my diabetic medicine by summer. Then by the end of the year I want my cholesterol lowered by 70 points. But, my main goal is to like myself no matter what my size is or how many times I have to “start over” … I don’t know how to do that, but I’m going to find out.

Now is the time for us to “start over” Let’s make new, more personable goals, something just for ourselves. Let’s challenge ourselves … let’s challenge each other!

For our first challenge … do something you’ve been putting off until you are “skinny”. Do it now … get a new tattoo … join a dance class … get a photo shoot done (something risqué!) Then, let’s journal (post) our goals, our hopes, our successes, our failures, we will be helping each other by doing so.

I found a few inspirational quotes that may (or may not) help;

“If you keep on going the way you're going you'll end up where you're heading - which direction are you aiming for?”

“Think of yourself as a toy train. All toy trains de-rail now and then. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back on track.”






And some helpful websites;

http://www.exercisetv.tv/
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/
http://www.everydayhealth.com/

Love,

Started NEW!!!

OK sisters....I started a new diet on Monday. 1200 calorie diet, I did alot of research on-line and there is alot of options of what you can eat.
I did start journaling what I eat for breakfast, morning snack, lunch, afternoon snack, dinner and evening snack. The closest I came to 1200 was yesterday at 1194 and I didn't die of starvation.

Keep your fingers crossed - my goal is 46lbs by the end of the year which is about 2 and 1/2 lbs per week.
I know if I exercised I would have no problem but I'm not to the exercise point yet still working on getting use to the diet.

I REALLY WISH WE COULD LMAO!!

It would make dieting and weight loss so much easier! So now that another months is gone and I'm still not doing anything, what's next....





I need something that I can fit in with work Monday - Friday 7:30am to 4pm and full-time school online every night and on campus Monday and Wednesday.


So my problem is not only motivation but time.....and if I could pull time out of my butt and LMAO I could probably fit in my skinny jeans!!

Laughing my @$$ off!

Seriously ... Bek - Cookie Monster has me LMAO!

Well yesterday was day number 1 ... for about the 15th time, but who's counting.

I have to do this ... I lost 40 lbs and have gained back 8. The whole time I'm eating something I'm saying to myself - I shouldn't do this but oh well ... I'll start Monday! Yeah right!

I've said it before, but my kids have picked up with my habits. I am so worry for them. I don't want them to have my issues. So, we are making changes in our family. Last night all four of us joined a gym! 

WAY 2 GO, 

MENLOVE's FROM DOWN UNDER!

Even though I felt so triumphant in my sucess to get all of us there (mostly Dan) I was saddened when we had to do measurements, not for me, I knew where I was, but for Mary. My sweet little girl's body fat % was more than mine. She started crying when she saw that she weighed more then her brother. (And I came home and cried by myself)

And that is why we joined.

So, for my kids sake - I say this ends now! I stop lollygagging - I know what works, I just don't want to do it. Well - it is time for a change, I DO want to do it. I WILL NOT eat cookies or cake. And if I do, I'm not going to chalk the whole week as gone ... because, then I do nothing and say "oh I'll start again on Monday" I do not want my kids in my place EVER! So it starts with me and (I'll need all ya'lls help)

So I'm throwing out the cookies ...

Tomorrow is another day!!!

OK, first let me say....I'm soooo jealous about the Mother's Taffy cookies!!!!

NOW down to business.....we have 5 months and about 1 week until we are all together for TOFW so we all need to get off the Titanic and get our butts in gear!! We all have the comfort eating habit so we need to brain storm and find something that can fill the comfort. I tried exercise....that didn't work - I would eat when I was done, I tried reading.....that didn't work - I would eat while reading, I tried sex.....that didn't work either - have to have a willing other participant and I would eat when we were done. SO what is left....we do we start....we do we need to do???????

IT'S A CRISIS of TITANTIC Proportions

Okay! I am in crisis mode! I seriously need help! I just polished off 1/2 of a box of Mothers Taffy cookies, very delish by the way.                                                

                                                                                                 

And now...
My belly hangs out past my boobs now (quote stolen from Tammy). I know what works, but I don't want to try anymore and I'm falling apart!

So now what?

I have NO IDEA!

Blah,Blah,Blah ...

I've been ... gone, mentally! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME! Yes, I may be going through a crisis, I may just be having a bad hair day, but whatever it is - I WANT FOOD. Namely - Dark Chocolate, Brown Sugar Pop-Tarts, Blue Bunny's, Bunny Tracks Ice Cream and Nana's Texas Chocolate Sheet cake. Okay - this is a crisis!

I haven't been back on myfitnesspal either. This week was spring break and I was suppose to get things organized - but I didn't. I made ribbon roses and cleaned (like always) and worked two days. But - I have decided that I want to become a professional crafter when I grown up. I want to make cards, and sew aprons and handbags, scrapbook and paint my walls. I don't want to be a grown up anymore!

But ... reality! I am a grown up and a mom. Lately I've noticed that my eating habits have filtered to Mary. She snacks all the time! And doesn't even realized what she's eating. The other day I yelled her for eating all her birthday cake (a two tiered chocolate montrosity, that Dan made), but then I realized that I'm the one that probably taught her to eat like that - I do that, that's how I eat.

So, with conviction I say Tomorrow is the first day! I'm staring fresh tomorrow, I'll lead by example and eat right, exericse and get a smaller butt! (And hopefully a daughter without all my problems!)








But on a fun note, that goes along with my aspiration of being a professional crafter, I found this super fun site called The DIY Dish -

Watch Here (They totally sound like Utahans)

Well, maybe if I do become a professional crafter my hands will always be full and I won't be eating! Hey, that's what I'll do ...

PS - Are we all in for Time Out for Women? Please, I hope so!

I have been fat!!!

Ohhh....you said where have you been not what have you been :)

I guess procrastination is a genetic thing because I haven't gotten back on my calorie counter since we talked and I signed up. I need to make my own goal to get organized because I am not organized at all. With work, kids, school and home if I don't get organized I will lose my mind and still be fat!

So my goal is to get organized and get a set schedule for myself daily so I have no excuse not to squeeze in some form of exercise at least 3 times per week.

Love and miss you all!!!

Where have you all been??

What's going on here? It's like a ghost town since I last posted about my plan to get organized and have more time to get in shape. Well to update... I have lost 9 lbs so far and to be honest I didn't really start right away after my last post. But about 4 weeks ago my friend told me about a free calorie counter website called myfitnesspal.com. And that's where I have been. I have gotten organized for the most part so I have made time to workout and I love the website because it keeps track of my food and I can log my exercise and it it's helped me stay motivated. So if if anyone is interested, be my friend!

My "New" New Year's Resolution

OMG!!! It's already almost the middle of January and I'm behind on my goal for this month. So I did OK over the dreaded holidays, when everyone is supposed to gain. Then we all make a resolution to loose weight after the New Year, right? It didn't work so well for me last year so what makes me think it will work this year? So I'm changing my Resolution! I know you're thinking "can you do that? can you change your New Year Resolution after it already started?" And the answer is, Sure you can! So My "New" New Year's Resolution is... to be BETTER ORGANIZED! Now how can this help the New Me for the New Year? I'm hoping that being more organized around the house I can spend more time working on my fitness and less time cleaning and finding places to put all our junk, and being more prepared with meals and grocery shopping will help me eat better. I need to be able to plan ahead and take good snacks and lunches to work, which is were I gain most my weight. It's either this or quit my job and that's not really an option.
So I just want to wish everyone good luck on your resolutions and goals! Oh and BTW,I got the Wii Fit from Jake for Christmas!! And he built me a Wii/workout room, so my workout stuff has an organized place! Happy Journey Everyone!! Love you!

NEW YEAR!!! NEW START!! again :)

OK - my plan for 2010 is to stay motivated.

I have my gym pass, I have pretty good eating habits so what's the problem....motivation!!

Curves, curves, & more curves!
Curves, curves go away. . . . skinny me wants to play!!

Here goes! I know how to eat right, I just choose not to! I know I need to walk/exercises every day, but I always have something more important to do (an excuse). I will never go to the gym because I refuse to run on a treadmill next to the skinny girl or the really hot guy! I probably didn't get that job because of my weight/health, why would a health care professional want to hire someone who is NOT healthy? My "skinny" jeans actually used to be my "fat" jeans! I know I am obese, but I never say it out loud. I am saying it now & it is time to do something about it!!

The chief excitement in a woman's life is spotting women who are fatter than she is, true or false?

TRUE:
I have tried to accept my weight by looking at other people that are "fatter" than me. I would look at them and think, "well at least I don't look like that". It seems as though every year I find less and less people that I can think that about and that's because I am catching up with them all. I am now the "fat girl" that others walk behind and think, "well, at least I am not as fat as her". I can read their mind, I feel what they are thinking.

I am obese! I am not healthy, and I am doing something about it. Not next week, or at the beginning of the month. Not after the holidays or starting the new year. Not when I have more time or my life gets less busy. Not when I go to the Doctor or the hospital because it's a matter of life or death. I am doing something NOW!. . . . . . . . . . .

I am joining curves!! I am sure I will cry tomorrow morning when they tell me my weight and measure my waist and one day I hope to be crying happy tears because I reached my goal & "love" my waist!! I hope that my current "skinny" jeans will once again become my "fat" jeans. I hope to soon post a "before" picture, a "I am on my way" picture, and one day a "I DID IT" picture. It's time to take care of me!!

Thanks for those who understand the journey I am about to take and for those who are taking the journey with me!!

Joining curves to lose some curves!

Vicious Circle

Well a Yo-yo is a circle! Which is exactly was has been happening to me. Yay!! I lost 2.6 lbs... then gained 2.9 Ok not so bad, just have to start over. So I did really well and didn't bother obsessively weighing myself every morning. The following week, whoo-hoo!! lost 3lbs! How did I do that? It was so easy, almost too easy. Now I'm back to getting naked and hopping on the scale every morning only to see that 3 lbs is back and now I have to avoid the bathroom mirror as I hop off, ugh, and decide for what seems like the millionth time "I'm starting over... Today" Now I only wish I would have woken up an hour early, saw that dreaded scale and headed downstairs for a fresh start work out. But I was so tired, cuz my chubby self couldn't get comfy, so I didn't sleep well and now I have no energy to work out. Although I know that if I exercise more, I'll have more energy to make good food choices throughout the day, which will help my weight loss and in turn help me sleep better so I can wake up refreshed and start the day with and energizing workout. Yep... It's a vicious circle! Well tomorrow is another day and when I get a hold of that yo-yo I'm gonna cut the string off and tie it up in knots!

HUSBANDS

Oh Molly - I'm sorry you have a saboteur in your mists!! BOO Dan - why couldn't he just be a computer geek or mechanic or something like that? (Because I wouldn't of had the best wedding cake EVER!!)



If it makes you feel any better my 6.2lbs was before mom came to visit - I haven't been to the gym since and Mike goes 4 times a week. He has lost 17.8lbs.



So I don't know what is worse a cooking saboteur or a losing weight faster and clothes getting to big quicker husband. (which he also has to let me know I haven't been to the gym!!) BOO Mike!!

Crabbiness & Sabotage

Fall is usually the time of year I love. Getting the kids back to school, shopping for the needed items, going to football games, digging out fall sweaters and boots, the smell of wet leaves in the morning and the deep rich colors of fall leaves. And fall food ... mmmmmm fall food means, warm apple crisp with vanilla ice cream, clam chowder with honey corn bread, pumpkin chocolate chip cookies …

Of course fall doesn't happen here - in Purgatory! We have three seasons … Hot (Nov – Jan), Hotter (Feb – May) and Hottest (June – Oct).  It's just too darn hot! Too hot to move, too hot to breath, too hot to blink! The heat makes me tired, gives me a headache and makes me terribly crabby! We are also busy as a family ... running here and there, work, school meetings, football games, band concerts, and the last second "oh yah ... I forgot to tell you ..." those dreaded words are usually followed by a slip of paper being handed to me, one that was dated over a week ago, one that's going to make me skip my healthy dinner, get back in the car and attend whatever it is that was just handed to me. All of this while it is still 106 degrees ...

On top of all that, my husband, who is great chef and could make anything taste good, even the meager and sparse fare I should be eating, is sabotaging me. He makes, cheese ravioli, pizza and mac -n- cheese for dinner. He helps Mary make chocolate chip cookies and brownies, which serves as a double whammy; you try coming home from work, (where it's taken the car the whole ride home to cool off from sitting in the sun all day) you walk in the door and are blasted with the heat of a 400 degree kitchen but the wonderful smell of chocolate! Then my wonderful husband says to me ... oh sorry, you salad fix'ins froze in the fridge (because it's so hot, you have to turn up your fridge) and you don't have anything to eat ...

All of this has made me incredibly crabby ... even angry! I find myself wondering "how did I get here" I was never a bad eater or really an over eater ... but mention the four letter word "diet" and suddenly I'm hungry, when two seconds ago I wasn't and all I really want to do is stomp my foot, throw my fists in my eyes and display my two year old "impression" all the while screaming "I don't want to work-out, I want the cookie! GIVE ME COOKIE"
So, I've come to that point ... the point where they (whomever "they" is) say that everyone going through a lifestyle change goes through. Where your suppose pick yourself up, dust off the mistakes and forge ahead! Repeating to yourself positive anticdotes like, Don't beat yourself up, or It's about feeling healthy, or my favorite look how far you've come.

I read an article by the Biggest Loser trainer-lady (the mean one), it was titled How to Reach Any Body Goal. What she said is:
1. Take Responsiblity for YOUR life - and your weight. Check
2. Create a Healthy Environment for Yourself - Working on it
3. Be Prepared to Deal with Saboteurs - Not sure how 'cuz it's husband
4. Ban the word DIET forever!


My goals for the coming weeks will be simple, I'll pick myself up, dust off my mistakes and forge ahead. Oh, and ... ban the word DIET forever! And, I choose you guys as my support!

Congrats Bekah!

6.2!!!!!

6.2 lbs - I lost 6.2lbs - did you hear me, I LOST 6.2lbs!!

In 2 weeks :)

STARVING!!!

Ok I did it. I bit the bullet (I would probably eat one right now if I had one) and started a DIET!! UGH!! You know that is a 4 letter word.

I don't know what it is about diets but I'm always hungry.

Oh - and I went to the gym last night - can you believe it??? I still can't and I was there for over an hour and not just wondering around. My legs are killing me and I'm starving!!

It works!!! Yeah!!! It's just texting - all of you need to set it up - I do everything by phone now!!

Blogging by phone

So I set up my phone so let's see it I can blog from my phone. I really just want to see what it looks like.

Its a sickness ...

I’m in what I call the “In-between” size. You know the one, it’s where your current clothes are way too big, but the next size down doesn’t quite fit yet. My pants are the worst, I walked into Target the other day and my shorts were falling off me taking my underwear with them, so I had to go shopping (Dillard’s was having a massive sale). After trying on several different pants, and becoming more and more frustrated, I headed over to the shoe department, where I know I’ll always find something that fits. Only thing is – I didn’t need shoes, I needed pants!

So there it is - my sickness … shoes! more importantly, designer – high-heeled shoes! I love them, the higher the heel, the better, they make me feel tall and make my legs look sexy … but most of all … they make me feel skinny! (I think it’s smart that they only have those “feet” size mirrors; if I saw my whole body … I don’t think I would be walking out with a new pair of shoes!) Shoes make me happy! In the book In Her Shoes there is a wonderful quote; “When I feel bad I like to treat myself. Clothes never look any good... food just makes me fatter... shoes always fit.” This is how I feel! Shoes alway fit! But ... I want clothes to fit too.

This brings me to my next sickness … exercise videos! I keep buying them, all with good, even great intentions. Promises of “I can be slim in 6 weeks”, or “Look, I can get skinny working out 10 mins a day” or my fave “Firm my way to a great booty”. The problem with working out … I don’t have work-out shoes! I know, for as much as I love shoes, I hate tennis shoes. They hurt my feet and make them numb and tingly. I would much rather walk around in my 4.5 inch, Jessica Simpson, black flat toe heel. It’s a work out isn’t it? That high of heel has to be working out my … hmmm? Calves? How about my balance, I have great balance! Does that count?

When I was skinny, I loved to work-out, I loved playing sports, I went mountain biking 6 months pregnant (much to the dismay of my father-in-law). Fast forward 65+ lbs … and I hate it, actually I hated it 45 lbs ago!

So here I am stuck at the same weight for 3 weeks now … I lost 27 lbs and stopped, which always happens! My doctor tells me, if I would just walk 20 minutes a day, I’d push past this … 20 minutes … he is kidding? Its 110 degrees outside … at midnight!

They say (I don’t know who “they” is) that it takes 7 times to make a habit. And exercise should be a habit, not a chore and eventually my body and mind will grow to love it! HA! But, I’m willing to give it a try.

So, here’s to day one of the “new” habit! Working out …with or without shoes, tennis shoes I mean. Let’s all start with today and for seven days do 20 minutes of something that gets our heart rate up (does sex count?). Post during about how you’re feeling … I’ll let you know if my body is really starting to “love” it. Then let’s all post at the end of seven days and see if it’s a habit! I’m doubtful … but let’s prove me wrong!

And anyone wanting to borrow a great work-out video, I have a few to spare …